Katherine Heigl shared a touching and beautiful post on her Instagram account, in honor of her son’s first birthday. The actress and husband Josh Kelley welcomed son Josh Jr. last December, and Katherine spoke honestly about her complicated delivery.

Katherine Heigl is a mother of three, but her delivery with Josh Jr. was the first time she’d ever been hospitalized. She talks about how nervous and scared she was leading up to the scheduled c-section.

At 9am one year ago today I had @joshbkelley take this photo of me so I could remember how incredibly pregnant I was right before we left for the hospital and my 12pm scheduled cesarean. Joshua Jr had been in the breech position for over a month and had still not moved an inch a week before his due date so I made the decision to have a cesarean and was incredibly nervous and a little scared this time last year. I had never been hospitalized or had ever had any kind of surgery and had no idea what to expect. The second photo is right before I went in for surgery. Trying to look cool, calm and collected! They numbed me up, gave me some morphine and opened me up. My doctor struggled to get him out because he was really wedged in there and not quite ready to leave the womb. When she finally pulled him out at exactly 12:33pm he didn’t start breathing and they worked quickly to get oxygen in him and start his tiny lungs. @joshbkelley was standing with them when he finally took his first breath. That day, as I slowly came out of the morphine haze and clutched my tiny man to me I thanked the heavens for his breath, his life and for making me a mother three times over. As evening settled in Josh and I got cozy in my hospital room, found one of my all time favorites #SweetHomeAlabama on the tv and just relished in our perfect newborn son. He was so tiny and new, so fragile and tender. As I lay him down to sleep that first night in his very appropriate “welcome to the world” sleep sack I thought the moment would last forever. Yet here we are, a whole year later and it’s only the photos that remind me my brute of a boy was ever so new and small! Now he’s 26 ponds of rolling, tumbling, grasping, giggling, shouting, curious, jolly energy! He is everything and more than I could have hoped for and he has brought our family even more joy, love, laughter, abundance, bliss and yes, exhaustion and exasperation too! It’s been a hell of a year and I could not be more grateful for it or him! Happy Birthday to my little man! Maybe I can make this next year go a little slower!

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Josh Jr. had been stuck in breech position for a month before her due date, and hadn’t budged. So Katherine made the decision to have a c-section. As if the fear of never having been hospitalized wasn’t enough, things got a bit scary when Josh Jr. made his big debut.

“They numbed me up, gave me some morphine and opened me up. My doctor struggled to get him out because he was really wedged in there and not quite ready to leave the womb. When she finally pulled him out at exactly 12:33pm he didn’t start breathing and they worked quickly to get oxygen in him and start his tiny lungs.”

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Image: Facebook/Katherine Heigl

Baby Josh finally took his first breath, with papa standing nearby. Today, Katherine says, he’s a big rollie pollie of a baby with a vibrant personality! “He is everything and more than I could have hoped for and he has brought our family even more joy, love, laughter, abundance, bliss and yes, exhaustion and exasperation too!”

Katherine hasn’t been such on the big or small screen lately (CBS cancelled her show Doubt after just two episodes). But she blogs regularly at Those Heavenly Days about her life as a mom to Naleigh, Adalaide, and Josh Jr.

Happy birthday, Josh Jr.! And thank you for sharing such a lovely bit of what was surely a very special day, Katherine!

(Image: Facebook/Katherine Heigl)